Life goes past so fast; but so many things can happen. Change. It's incredible. We're almost at the end of 2009. I'm almost at the start of 10th grade (time to start taking things seriously!). Things are going past like a blur, but things are changing clearly. It's pretty weird. Of course, you look back and you go, "wow. It was like, yesterday that we were celebrating the start of 09!" But then you think about everything's that happened and you go, "but so many things have changed/happened."
Anyway, I'm gonna move on before I make the same points in different sentences. Hahaha.
My title pretty much explains my blog. When people started seeing me in Dolly Magazine; they told me I was pretty. They told me I was beautiful. They told me that that is a gorgeous picture. Of course, I cherished that moment. And I realized something, too.
I'm starting to love me because you do. You love me. You give me support and amazing love; you say that you love me and you say that I inspire you. I believe in me because you believe in me. That's how I feel right now. Of course, there will be days when I feel down and insecure. But then again, all it takes is for somebody to compliment me. Anything. Even my nose or my hair. Still, I'd feel a little better. That's how powerful words are. I never knew how words can hit or heal you so much. But now I know.
That's why I'm bracing myself for more rough days to come.
Nobody at school knows or knew that I had bad days. They didn't even think I would. That proves how amazing it is how much a smile can hide. It can hide everything. Bruises, cuts, marks and scars. Tears, hurt, and even lies. I'm sure there has been a day where you felt so miserable. But nobody really suspected. And I'm just gonna guess why..
Because you smiled. You laughed. You made yourself look like you're the happiest person on this earth. But when you get home, your smile fades. You get back to reality, sort of. Some of you describe your home as a place where you can run away. Others describe their home as World War III. Fighting and arguing with your parents is a very common thing in teenagers. Your parents won't always agree to what you have to say. Saying, "we're in the 21st century now!!" won't change a lot of things, trust me. I've tried.
But after all the fights and arguments and yelling, you've gotta know that deep inside, it's all love. You're growing up. Your parents are only used to that little kid they raised up. They don't want to see you grow up, so they go against things you wanna do. Like go out with your friends, or your boyfriend, or whatever. I know some parents that don't allow their kids to do normal socializing because they don't want them to grow.
In you and your friends eyes, you're a teenager. But in your parents eyes, you're still their little girl. Yes, it can be annoying most times. But sometimes, you've gotta cherish that moment because one day, they won't be here anymore. You'll have to handle this world by yourself. You won't be able to look back and say everything you wished to say.
So say everything now.
Believe it or not, I still kiss my daddy goodnight. Yeah, I'm 14 and I might even be embarrassed to be seen with my parents sometimes. But then I just cut out of it. I hug my parents when I'm walking through the shops. I kiss them good morning and good night. I tell them I love them before I go to school every morning.
Some people are closer with their mother. But not me. I'm more closer to my dad. I always joke around with him and act like a little kid when I'm around him. But I'm not ashamed. My parents raised me up to be the person that I am today and I'm never going to go against that fact. I'm thankful that God has blessed me with amazing people.
Anyway, I'm off. More tomorrow! Hope you enjoyed today's blog!! I love you all soo much. It means the world to me when you take time you read and comment my blogs. Seriously. It makes me feel special and I hardly ever feel special. So thank you my beautifuls.
You're all amazing. Every single one of you. Each day I smile when I think about you guys. Each day I appreciate to have such amazing friends and supporters to help me deal with a life that you guys might be dealing with too.
So thank you!! Love you all. xox -Hiba