Tuesday, September 29, 2009

what's the point?!

what's the point of putting others down? what's the point? is it so you can feel good and powerful and bigger than us? is it because you think your opinion is always needed everywhere? is it because you think what you're saying is right but really, it's not?

well i'll tell you something. i'm not interested in what you think you're doing for me or anybody else. if i ask for your opinion, sure, tell me. but you have no right coming onto my personal blog and giving me your shit-ass comments which i do not need. i don't need someone who's afraid of letting me know who they're really are.. telling ME that I'M talking shit.

who are you to tell me that? oh, right.. nobody knows.. cause you're a little scared shit who has nothing better to do than comment on the blogs that they do not like.

and the worst part is, i would have thought you're, you know, brave or whatever but that all washed off my mind when i saw you commented as a anonymous.

scared much?

are you afraid if i tell people about you, they'd see the true you? the one that tries insulting another person JUST to make yourself feel a little better?

of course, we all have our own opinions. sometimes our opinions can give us big-heads. this is the case. an opinion isn't the TRUTH. it's just a person's perspective of something in-particular. and here you are, making it sound like you're some top bitch. you don't own me. you don't own australianFFE. you don't own this blog. you don't and never will own the jonas brothers, either.

which means you can't tell others when to and when not to speak about them and where to and where not to. which means you can't tell ME what to talk about on the Twitter that I CREATED for fans to connect.

Oh. Yeah. So you're telling me that I'm not allowed to write personal tweets just because it's a twitter for Jonas Brothers fans? Hahahaha. You crack me up. I don't want the fans to look at our Twitter and find info they can find pretty much anywhere else. It's not all about the info. It's about bonding between OTHER JB fans. Personal tweets help when you wanna make friends with people you connect with.

get a life asshole.

maybe you should think about it at least?

so instead of commenting me with those pointless opinions of yours when you know that i will not appreciate them, don't comment at all.

it's simple. it's easy.

p.s sorry for calling you a bitch and an asshole. i should have thought of something more insulting.

p.p.s i'm not just going to let you get away with anything you do, even if i don't know who you are. i'm not going to look like a girl who's afraid of standing up for herself when people give her shit like this because i'm not that girl

byeeeeee loser..

and as for everybody else who's been supporting me.. thank you.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

hearts like sand

have you ever felt alone? like you're the only person in the whole entire world feeling the way you do? like the walls to your bedroom are closing in on you slowly? like you just wanna run away and never look back? like you just wanna rewind time and change everything?

i have. i am. right now.

when you lose all your hope and faith.. you can't turn to anybody. and i hate to say this.. but not even God. if you lose your faith, you lose your belief. and that's what's killing me at the moment.

when things don't go my way, of course i'm all like "god why are you doing this to me, god why is this happening, why am i so imperfect blah blah blah".. it's because when things happen.. you NEED someone to blame..you can't just blame yourself for your problems..you need somebody else to blame..not saying it'll make you feel any better, most of the time, but it does get a little feather off your back.

i hate being so sensitive. it gets to me all the time. i get offended for OTHER people. imagine if i get offended for MYSELF - how bad that is for me..i don't like being so sensitive and fragile. my heart is like dry sand on the beach..you touch one little bit..and my heart falls apart. you touch it with your finger, and viola.. there's a hole. that's how fragile i am.

and this leads to me being a quiet person. a quiet person who likes to keep to herself sometimes. but then.. things change. especially when i'm with my friends and, i don't know, like had an energy drink or something.. i just act all crazy and sarcastic and funny and all of that.

it's annoying. the fact that i'm practically two people...but those two people have the same "settings", i guess you can call it.

these two people have sand hearts. but these two people aren't exactly the same.

it's like hannah montana in real life..only i don't wear a wig, i'm not a secret rockstar and i don't get paid to be two different people. it's weird how somebody is getting paid to ACT like a real person can be. oh and did i mention the fact that i ain't miley cyrus? sometimes i wish i could be.

and no, not just to get close to "nick jonas" or be well known across the world.. it's much more than that. so i could have parents that KNOW what i'm going through..that support me ALL the time..so i could have friends and fans who also support me and are always there when i need someone to talk to.

my parents do support me. but not as much as i wish they could. they're the type that just want to see me get married and have kids and live happily ever after and the end. i don't want my life to be like this. i always argue with my mum and this is the main reason why. i hate it when she thinks she can control my life and take over.

nobody can change the way i sometimes feel about her when she's not fair to me. everybody tells me it's because she's afraid of letting me go or whatever.. but there's a whole world out there and it's calling my name. i don't want to ignore it and i'm not going to. of course i would love to get married and create a family.. but one day. i'm not rushed for anything like that because i know once i get married and have kids, i'm going to be a lot busier. i need to have time for my kids and husband and all of that wife/mum sorta thing. i don't want that to happen before anything else happens that i WANT to live.

persuing your dream, when you want to become a well known artist/writer, takes a long, long time, wheather you want it to or not (especially when you're dad wasn't an artist back in his days and um, isn't called billy ray cyrus or anything like that). getting married and having children doesn't take a very long time, if you want it to and CAN take a long time if you want it to.

my daddy is always on my side.. well, not always but i'm much more closer to him than i am with my mum. i've always wished to have a mum i could tell anything to. a mum that could be my best-friend. but i guess i'm never going to have that mum. but i can not wait to have a daughter, who when she becomes a teenager, trusts me enough to tell me anything she wants to.

i guess i get jealous because my best-friend and her mum have the bestest relationship i have ever seen. they're like best-friends. she tells her mum everything and her mum supports her. but then.. she's not like that with her dad. she's not close with her dad, i am. she's close with her mum, i'm not.

it's like she has the mother i never had and i have the father she never had.

this and that happened and then i came to conclusion.. that everybody has two modes. everything is at least two different people.

NOBODY is one person ALL the time. *cough cough*, especially if you're a girl and you PMS like, i don't know, every month..and your mood changes like, oh i don't know, EVERY DAY!!

and then it OFFICIALLY concludes to the fact that i am NEVER alone..even though it may be hard to imagine or believe..but there is always somebody else in the world that feels the way you do.

and if it's too hard to imagine.. you've always got your LORD. you've always got JESUS. you've always got MOHAMMED (prophet). you've got MARY. they are all looking down at you..hoping that you keep holding on..

And you've also got ME..beautiful friends..I was going through a hard time. a very hard time, actually. and writing this blog, like i'm speaking directy TO you..made me feel better inside.

remember that you've always got at least someone to turn to when times are tough. for me, it's God..well, and my laptop. if you can't find anybody to turn to..turn to ME.

i'll be there.

and to all the other hearts out there that are like sand..i'm proud to say sometimes our hearts being so fragile can be a good thing. not ONLY are we considered "relatives" BUTTTT we can also save ourselves from those people who joke around just a bit tooooo much..who one day might do something really stupid and you regret ever letting them in or blah blah.

te-quiero, amigas.. para-siempre y alguna-vez. i love you all forever.. and ever.

AND for the record.. if you DON'T like my blogs, DON'T comment. it's simple and easy. i don't need to hear your 2-cent comments, thank you very much.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

dreams..

i've literally been sitting on my computer for so long.. thinking of what to blog about. i hate when these writers blocks make their way towards me and my life. it's so annoying and frustrating; especially because writing is important to me. when you can't do something you love - it gets on your nerves.

anyhoo - moving on now. it's about time i actually write a blog that's worth reading!

do you have parents who protect you a little.. too much? have you ever been forbidden to go after your dream? are your parents afraid of letting you go? are you stuck in the house? do you wanna get out into the real world and go after your dream.. but somebody in your life is pulling you back?

i was thinking about it today.. some of you want to be an actor. some of you want to become a chef, an author, teacher, doctor, lawyer.. I respect whatever you're dream is. But always.. in every person's life.. there will be people that DON'T respect YOU and what YOU want to do.

you can't become a doctor when you're stuck inside of a room, only 4 walls surrounding you. you can't become a teacher if you don't go out and even TRY.

i just wish parents could understand that.

i was thinking today. I had an argument with my mum and after a while I'm like, "who am i kidding? i'll never become well-known or successful for what i love doing." I mean, in my opinion, if you can't become who you want to become in life, there's no point in living it. some of you don't know who you want you become because you don't know who you are RIGHT NOW.

there always has to be a place where you start, for you to jump onto something else.

my point is.. don't hold back. fight for what you believe. fight for yourself. do you want to live your life doing something you never wanted to do? and being a person you don't wanna be? i don't think so.

never ever ever EVER let a single person hold you back from your dream.

sometimes, it's YOU who's holding back YOU.. don't do that.. it hurts. it hurts to see you hurt yourself. honestly, it does. when you let this happen, i lose my faith.

i've seen people make these kind of mistakes. they're not "allowed" to be what they want to be so they just.. don't. they live a whole different life to what they had planned. i don't want to make that mistake.

and i don't want to see you making that mistake.

how are we supposed to believe when you don't? it's much harder to believe in something when you see others failing at it.

now of course, there's going to be times where i just sit back and think negativly like i just pointed out before. but that's normal. in the end, it's what's making me stronger.

and me being strong, is believing that YOU'RE strong as well..

so, my beautiful friends.. in the future, i want to be able to google your name and read something that will make me smile. i want to be able to read your name.. see your picture.. read what you're doing.. and i hope it's what you WANT to do.

NEVER let the fear of ANYTHING keep you from going after your dream.

a dream is a wish that you make.. a wish you want to be able to live forever doing.

have a good day, amiga's. and know that i am thinking of you.

xox -hibz

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

nicky j

I told ya I'd write a blog today! Because today is a very special day. Today is the day of Nick Jonas's birthday..

Wow - That was a lot of "days".

Well, it is! I'd like to wish Nick Jonas a very happy 17th birthday. I swear it feels like yesterday we were celebrating his 15th. And I was like, 12. Nobody was kidding around when they said time was traveling way too fast and we're getting older way too fast! Ha.

Right now.. I am licking my lips every second. No, not because I've got them covered in chocolate. Not because I'm wearing a lip-gloss that tastes like strawberries.. but because I'm fasting. AND MY LIPS ARE FREAKING DRY TO THE MAX. They have never been this dry.. and it's soo annoying. Oh well, only about an hour until I can drink water.. Yum, water. I was stuck at school today, in the hot weather.. watching people drink water. I was craving it. So bad. I was so thirsty.. But the sun was beautiful. :)

Okay, okay - I'll stop blabbing on about things you probably don't care about..

Did you guys hear about Kanye West & Taylor Swift? I am truly upset about the fact that I actually thought Kayne West was going up on the stage to CONGRATULATE Taylor.. not diss on her. Honestly, in my opinions.. I think it was a really stupid thing to do and Kanye didn't even think before going on stage. Taylor deserved that award. She's a really talented person. It was her first time winning a VMA. Beyonce' has won many VMA's. Why couldn't he let Taylor have her moment instead of humiliating her in front of soo many fellow celebrities, and fans.. and well, the world?

Beyonce' was truly being a beautiful person that she is. I loved it how she let Taylor re-do her speech later on.

What are your opinions on the incident that happened at the VMA's 2009 between Kenye West and Taylor Swift? Leave your thoughts in the comments for this blog! Love you all.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

i'm sorrrrry..

wow - i have not written a blog in, what feels like, so long! for this, i am truly sorry! i've been really busy and my writers block is no more.. for my song-writing. but now, i can't think of anything to write a BLOG about! stupid thing! ha. it's the last week of the term, and with all the reports and etc, i'm really busy. if you see me on twitter, i'm also doing my homework. it's so hard.

i promise to try and write a new blog as soon as i can. probably even tomorrow!

random news.. i'm learning spanish! estoy aprendiendo poco a poco espaƱol. Which means, "I'm slowly learning Spanish". Of course, it will take a while and I only should know the basic words that are used in every-day sentences. I've been having conversations with people that are actually spanish, in spanish - which is pretty cool..

anyway! so, i'm soo sorry guys. i love ya'll so much. for all your help and support. if i don't post a blog on nick's birthday.. you can seriously kill me. i'll kill myself. i must mark this date forever with a blog! hahaha.

i love you, once again. you all are amazing people.. truly. i think i know what to write my blog about tomorrow.. right now, i gotta go to bed. school tomorrow. :/

stay tuned my loves! -hibz

Thursday, September 10, 2009

more about me.

There's a lot you guys don't know about me just yet (and to think that was even possible!) so I will answer your questions on this blog!

Q; Who would you consider your biggest inspiration besides Jonas Brothers? (Nick Jonas) - Ashley

A; Well, the answer to that has to be Taylor Swift. I can relate to almost every one of her songs and it means a lot to be able to listen to this girl.. who used to be a normal teenager like me.. who went through bad times.. rough times.. bullying times.. (as she's said).. and now she's on top of the world. She gives me faith that I can end up like her one day (with my writing).

Q; Also, who are your favorite bands beside Jonas Brothers? -Ashley

A; Mmm.. I'm not sure. I'm not really into bands other than Jonas. Paramore is pretty cool.. Boys Like Girls.. I mean, I only like a few songs from each band so I guess that's not really considered "favorite". I'm more into the solo artists like Demi Lovato, etc. BUT! However. I am now officially in love with Coldplay! Their songs are UHMAZIN.

Q; What's the first and last thing you think about each morning and night? - Chesneyh

A; Each day I think of something differently. But most of the time, each morning I first think about the day ahead... how my day is going to be... what's going to happen.. and at night, I think about everything I did that day. But other than those.. the first and last thing I think about in the morning+night.. is God. :)

Q; Do you ever have one of those days where you feel like you don't belong and you're not wanted, and you just wanna run away? - Richelle

A; Yes. Yes. YES. These days have come and they have gone and they come again and then they go and so on. It happens to everyone. I feel all alone, even though I know I'm not. I look up at the sky, watch the sun.. watch the moon.. look at the stars and then I know for sure that I am not alone.. somewhere... somewhere in the world, somebody is looking at the same sun, moon and stars that I am looking at.. and thinking the same thing I am thinking. Life will always have it's rough times. Sometimes, believe it or not, I've thought that I don't belong in my family. Like everybody hates me. I'm the odd one out. Like I'm not loved.. Like I was born into a family I don't belong in. It hurts because sometimes I don't like to be proven wrong. Like in Black Keys.. Nick says/writes "she hates the sun cause it proves she's not alone and the world doesn't revolve around her soul". That line means a lot to me. Sometimes I like to think something and even though I know I'm NOT alone - but I feel like I am - I don't WANT to believe it.

Q; Why does Nick Jonas inspire you? How does he inspire you? - Frequently Asked.

A; When I tell people that hate the boys that Nick Jonas inspires me.. you know what they say? "You only love him cause you think he's hot!!". Not true. At all. I'm not going to say I don't think he's good looking or attractive.. but that's not the reason why I love him. There are fans that think like that.. but I am not one of them. I love Nick Jonas because he inspires me with my writing - and writing is the most important part of my life. It's a really big part of my life and it means a lot to me. Nick Jonas writes his own songs. Mostly about things anybody can relate to. Not always about girls or relationships or broken hearts. About life.. The good and the bad.. And that's what I love about him. He inspires me to write about my life. And that has helped me a lot because writing something down is letting something out.. and that changes a lot in my life. When I listen to the song he has written.. like Black Keys.. A Little Bit Longer.. etc, I smile. I smile at the words. I smile at his voice. They're both perfect for me. Then I instantly feel the urge to get up and start writing a song.. and the song ends up being my new favorite song that I have written. It means a lot to me.

Q; How passionate are you about writing? - Unknown.

A; Very passionate. I'm also passionate about music. Writing and music mix together.. they link together. I love to write because I love music. When I had a writers block a few weeks back.. I was going crazy. I couldn't think of ANYTHING to write and it killed me because I wasn't used to it. I really do love writing - it's become a big part of my life.

Q; Do you like the Beatles? -Sara

Yes! I LOVE JOHN LENNON - I must say. He was and still is an amazing human being. "Imagine" will forever be my favorite songs of history. He really is... he's just incredible. My dad was a big fan back in the days. John Lennon - you're awesome and forever will be. The Beatles are awesome, too. :)

That's all the questions I have time for now! I must go to bed. It's almost 12AM.. and I have school. Argh. I hope you guys enjoyed reading more about me! Thank you so much for your comments. They mean the WORLD to me - you have noo idea. So THANK YOU.

Here are a few video links.. that changed my life. Doves Campaign for Real Beauty:

Real Beauty or Fake?

Amy... is beautiful. And so are you.

I love the "Amy" one. And yes.. I did send it to you guys because I think each and every one of you are beautiful. (Watch the ad and you'll understand what I'm on about).

Honestly. You girls/guys are amazing. You're beautiful. You're perfect in every little way.

Talk soon.. xox -Hibz

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

it takes courage..

on this blog, i am not going to use capital letter where needed. because that is not what this blog focuses on. not using the right punctuation doesn't make this blog perfect.. and that is what this blog is about. i hope when you read this, you feel at least a little better. motivated. and then you will know that you are never alone...

so tell me... you. you right there. you the one that's reading my words. the one that's reading my story...the person who is as beautiful as a perfect rainbow...how was your day? did it suck? did you wanna run away? did you feel like nobody cared?

or maybe you felt happy... maybe you didn't feel sad. maybe today was a good day for you.

or maybe you're stuck in between...you had a good day...to begin with...then something happened and your good day become bad...

how ever your day was...how ever the sun shone..how ever the rain came falling down..or however the wind blew against your face...you came home...and you started to read this blog.

maybe cause you felt low and you needed some cheering up..maybe because you wanted to prove to yourself that you're not alone..maybe i inspired you..or maybe you just felt bad because i had asked you to read.. (thank you so much)

you...right there...staring back at your screen, reading along the words that i have written...did you know that you're beautiful in every possible way? did you know that you're an amazing person? did you know that god knows that?

i bet you didn't..which is why i started this blog site..because i have read some blogs by others, like christa black, who just let everything out..they were sharing their story..and i related. that proves that sharing your own personal story can make others know that they're never alone...because they relate.

did you know that it takes courage to get up every morning when you feel.. yuck? not appreciated? you do this for your lord. you do this for yourself. or you just don't wanna be late to school..but either way..it takes courage.

to go outside when you don't feel beautiful..to go to school when you don't feel beautiful..to tell yourself you're beautiful when you don't feel it..

let me tell you something..you're strong..you're a strong person. you can handle a lot of things..you are the one that has the power to brighten up your own day..

nobody else. you.

god is with you all the time..he's watching you from up above..he's hoping that you will keep holding on..and when you do, you feel blessed. you feel as if god has blessed you because you just made it through a tough day..

and that's what makes you a beautiful person..you.

you make yourself beautiful..you make yourself feel beautiful..nobody else. when somebody compliments you..you choose to take it as a blessing..you feel better when someone compliments you because you take that compliment in..

and you believe..

don't ever doubt anything in your life, sweeties...because doubting just stops the train of life you're on..it makes things harder..it makes it harder for you to believe in yourself..

don't ever let that happen..just know that i am thinking of you..just know that god is with you all the time...you are never alone.

i love you so much..you're all amazing and perfect..

-hibz

p.s this blog was inspired by christa black. this whole blog website was, too..but this blog was more inspired by her..she told me i was beautiful..she told me i was perfect..and i'm passing the love on. because i love you that much. xo

Sunday, September 6, 2009

i believe

Believing is one of the greatest gifts somebody can have.

Sometimes, it comes naturally.

But other times, it takes something to make you believe a certain thing.

I respect everybody and their beliefs. No matter what you believe, I respect you. But I believe in certain things, and because this is my blog, I will tell you guys.

Of course, I believe in God. Heaven. Hell. Judgment day. I know there is a God, I know there is a Heaven. When you feel like something or somebody is watching you... it's something you should cherish. Most of the time, it's not a human being watching you.

It's God.

I was fasting one day at school, while all my other friends weren't. I would watch them eating and be like "mmm... food". It crossed my mind that I should break my fast... but I couldn't. I didn't want to. I kept hearing a voice inside my head saying, "no, don't do it. You're strong. Stay strong and you'll be even more stronger."

I didn't break my fast. I kept on holding on. So when I went to break my fast when I actually could (sunset).. I felt much for accomplished.

I believe that God was there. Sending his angels to tell me that I shouldn't let anybody force me into breaking my fast before it was time.

When I talk about God and Heaven etc. to people... I smile. I smile because I believe. I believe because I... believe. I smile because believing is something you should smile about.

There was also a time where I down. Low. I couldn't get out of bed. I couldn't do anything. I had school. Didn't wanna be late... but I couldn't seem to pick myself up. I wasn't sick or anything.. I was just... I don't know.

That was when it was like God had reached down, and picked me up himself. Told me that I was strong enough to get up.

And believe it or not.. After I had gotten up and sat on the edge of my bed... The sun suddenly appeared out of nowhere. You know how sometimes the sunshine shines at a particular spot? Sometimes the reason being the curtain? That happened. The sunshine was right ON me.

Honestly.

I'm not lying or anything. I wouldn't lie about this kinda stuff.

All these signs... They make my belief stronger. And it means the world to me that I have a chance to believe in something that changes my life..

No matter what you believe in, you're beautiful.

You still believe in something. Everything you believe makes you a more beautiful person each day you continue to believe.

I swear I love ya'll. -Hiba

Saturday, September 5, 2009

rejection

Don't ever let the fear of rejection keep you from loving. And I'm proud of YOU for not letting that happen... but something... something different happened. Something you didn't expect.

He rejected you.

I can tell you that I know exactly how you feel. It's happened to me before. And I can also tell you that it's not the best feeling in the world.

You feel useless....worthless...like you don't matter...like you're not loved...like nobody likes you.

Then questions haunt you like, "why didn't he like me? I'm ugly, aren't I? I'm not beautiful. I'm not pretty." You wonder why he doesn't like you. "Did somebody tell him something about me? I can't believe the cutest guy just rejected me."

It's hard to cope with.

Hannah, you are beautiful. Honestly, you are. I am proud of you for not backing away and telling this boy your true feelings. You were rejected out of one boys life.... but you'll never be rejected out of mine. And a lot of other people.

One day, you're going to meet the boy of your dreams that loves you for you. That will love you back. Trust me, you will.

That's the reason why God created everything two. Two ears. Two hands. Two eyes. Then, he created only one heart for each person. Because there's another heart out there just for you.

I love you. :)

-Hiba

Friday, September 4, 2009

the black keys

I am in love with a song called Black Keys. It means a lot to me, more than anybody would ever know. It's not about boys. It's not about girls. It's not even about a relationship. It's giving a meaning of life. I'm not going to tell you who sings it/wrote it because that's not what matters. (I bet you already know, though).

"She hates the sun, cause it proves she's not alone and the world doesn't revolve around her soul:" This line was confusing at first. All it took was for me to read in between the lines for the understanding of it. There's always going to be a part in your life where you feel like you're everything. Where you are alone. Where you think of something and you don't want to be proven wrong. I think this line symbolizes that part of life.

"The walls are closing in. Don't let them get inside of your head:" I am sure that you have experienced this before. When you just wanna run away and ignore everything they say. When you feel like a tiny person sometimes. Like nobody cares. Like the walls of your bedroom are closing in.

"The Black Keys never looked so beautiful. And a perfect rainbow never seemed so dull. And the lights out never had this brighter glow and the Black Keys were showing me a world I never knew:" There's going to be times where things you thought were dull and gray and boring before.. will become your everything. While this happens, the things that are beautiful like rainbows and sunshine will appear to be dull and boring. Sometimes.. you've gotta take chances. Because sometimes, those chances will show you a whole different world.

When I first heard this song, I thought Black Keys was like... car keys or something (he says something about driving in a car). That made sense. Car keys are boring. Don't mean that much. He's telling us that they had never looked so beautiful while a rainbow didn't. But then I found out that Black Keys were actually the keys that are black (duh) on a piano. I found out that when he said when he first wrote this song, he only used the black keys on his piano.

This boy keeps getting amazing.

"Sometimes a fight is better black and white:" True. Sometimes color isn't everything. In fact, I love taking black and white photographs of pretty much anything.. Because when you look at the picture, you don't look at the color of the person's eyes....or the color of the clothes their wearing....or the color of their hair. You just look at this picture. And that's the beauty of life.

This song has inspired me. Ever since I first heard it... it touched my heart. This boy proves to me that writing doesn't only express love and broken hearts (c'mon, you gotta admit... most songs out there are about that sorta stuff). It can express anything. I love a song even more when I understand the meaning of the words.

That's why when I write songs.... I don't always write about boys. Love. Broken hearts. I write about... life. I write about things that I go through, and most of the things I do go through isn't always boys boys boys.

This person inspires me so much. I never thought I could be this inspired. (Because of him, you got this blog and most blogs on here. Because of him, I write songs that have meanings.) I've always wondered and dreamed of writing a song with this boy. Okay, okay... I'll admit. Every other girl has dreamed that too.

But... not every other girl is passionate about writing like I am. Some are just like me. So they know how I'm feeling. This boy writes words that have the ability to touch my heart....inspire me.

If we ever do write a song together... I'll be sure not to write about being broken hearted. About love between two people attracted to each other. I just.... I want to write a song about life. Something that every other person will eventually relate to. Something that will touch every person like this song has touched me.

Who knows, maybe we'll write a song called White Keys. ;)

So, that's all for today. Remember that you are beautiful. You define the word beautiful. Words can't and will never bring you down because I know that you're strong. Take chances because sometimes they help you turn into the right direction.

You can't win until you try.
You can't touch the sky until you fly.
You can't finish until you start.
You can't love until you have a heart.

I came up with that a few months back. It means... taking a chance. Of course, you'll take chances that you shouldn't have taken. But taking them has taught you a whole new thing. Something new. Don't let the fear of that keep you from taking the chances.

I love you.

-Hiba xoxo

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

he's looking down

God. He's looking down. At all of us. He is the only one who can feel how you feel when you're having a tough time. He is the only one who can see your true colors, even if you don't show them. God is looking down at you. He's looking down and thinking, "wow this person is strong." He is proud. He created a person who can handle a lot of things. Tears, cuts, bruises, fights.. He does not want to see you sad. Ever.

He created you to go after what you want. He wants you to be happy.

However, he also created people who took the wrong path. Walked down the road of life and instead of turning a certain way, with the rest of us, turned the other way. This person made the wrong choice of making the right choice.

This person's action has put them into a bad position. Abusing because they don't like the fact that they've ruined their only chance at life. Yelling because they don't like who they've become. Yelling words at other people they want to yell at themselves.

Don't ever blame yourself or God for any bad moments in your life. Don't blame anyone. Just keep your head up, fight it through. So when that time comes where you're smiling, joyfully... You'll be able to smile even more because you fought through a time all by yourself. And that's what makes us all strong people every day.

Appreciating every moment of your life is what makes you a happy person in the end. Sit on your bed, in the sunlight and think. Don't let anybody bother you. Block out the screaming and yelling, if there's any in your house amongst your brothers/sisters/parents etc. If somebody is yelling at you, just say "Okay", no matter how much you're dying to comment back.

That way you won't be too upset at the end. When you smile, you'll smile for a reason.

And guess what? I will smile along with you. And so will the world.

Trust me on this. Trust yourself. Trust GOD. And nobody else should be able to ruin your day. If they do, you'll have at least SOMEBODY to turn to.

I love you.

-Hiba