Monday, February 7, 2011

birthday girl!!

you're probably thinking wtf, whats this girl doing blogging on her birthday?! well, sorry, not everyone gets to have a big day out of their birthday :( haha. i cant complain though, i had school today but i really, really enjoyed it.. i'm starting to love year 11! :) in music i showed off some of my lyrics and sang them while others played the guitar and piano along with my words.. awesome!! my facebook wall has been FLOODED literally, from all the amazing bday wishes from everyone i love

and tweets as well!!! ahh i love all of my friends i'm so lucky to have such amazing friends and family. i love you guys so much!!

anyway, i dont have much to write. im so thankful that today turned out to be amazing. and you know what? its because of ME. i allowed myself to be happy and let the compliments MAKE ME HAPPY. last night i stared right into my mirror, as creepy as this sounds, but i told myself im BEAUTIFUL. i smiled to MYSELF and saw myself smiling back and you know what i love the most? it wasnt FAKE it was a real smile. these are the moments i should cherish.

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

That is innocence by AVRIL LAVIGNE. This song was repeated time after time last night, considering it described EXACTLY what i felt. it was amazing - i slept with a smile on my face, i felt loved, i felt like i loved myself.. i was...

I was happy.

these moments are the beautiful moments in life. where you don't think of anything else to worry about, where you don't have anything to be upset about... its the innocence. AMAZING..

love you all!! xoxoxox