Thursday, August 20, 2009

i love God.

I like having conversations with people about God. So, this blog will be mainly about God.

I love God. That's what I have to say. He is the only one I can trust. Only one I can rely on. & I know that He will never let me down. You see, when I pray.. I don't feel as if I'm talking to myself. There's something telling me that God really is listening. He is amazing and.. whenever I feel down, I just sit all alone in a dark room (doesn't have to be dark, but I like it to be dark. Ha.) and just pray. Speak to God.

I speak to God mainly at night, when everybody is asleep and it's dark and I'm in my bed, covered with sheets and warm. I just look up, hands behind my head and just talk. Talk to God. I feel as if He really is listening to what I have to say. Someone once said to me, "If you don't know who to be or what to do, just look deep inside of your heart. God is there." And it's true. God is with you everywhere you go. He will never unlove you. You are his child. He is your father. Humans on this Earth are all apart of God's big family. We are all God's children, and we're all family.

I just wish someday the whole world will realize that and we'll just be family. Living happily, peacefully.. I'm sure you want that too. I've heard the people who begin wars say or write in text that they're "bombing for peace". That is ridiculous! Bombing for peace is like having sex for virginity. Pointless! It just doesn't make sense. Live your lives, people. Don't go around killing others just because you don't like who you are and what you have become. You can change that fact, I promise. :)

I wrote a.. sort of poem about the times where you feel as if God hates you. When things don't go your way, you're just like, "argh, God really does hate me!". Not true! God loves you!

"God loves me. God loves us all. He gives us life, He gives us joy, but the rest just comes. Do you think God just clicks a button and zaps us straight to the top of the mountain? Straight to our dreams? No. He gives us oppurnities. We, however, have to work for our dreams. Sometimes when you pray, you feel as nobody is listening. But when God blesses you, you can feel His blessings." -Hiba

EDIT: I also wrote a song once. It was a time where I was just completely confused and wanted answers. It's called "Will This Be All Over Soon". Tell me what you think please?

I just don't know what to do anymore.
Everywhere I go, I'm so alone.
Even if I've got company,
I don't feel like having people around.

God, please, send down a message.
Will this be all over soon?
Should I just wait, or should I do something?
I just don't know what to do.
God, please, let me know when.
I could get up and be myself.
Should I believe, should I even smile?
Why am I always under a grey cloud..

I just don't know what to do anymore.
Outside it's sunny, but inside it's cold.
I can't bare to look at myself in the mirror.
I'm just not what I used to be.


Should I wait? Should I do something?
Will you send me, will you send me a message.
I believe in you, I believe you can make me smile.
And until, we meet again, up in Heaven.
Will you please help me, deal with this life?
Cause I can't even think, without thinking of you.
And if you're looking down at me,
Will this all over soon? Will this be all over soon?


Anyway.. Back to my story...

This girl ended up realizing how much what she had said had hurt me. Everybody was giving me amazing support and I'm thankful for that, but I still didn't feel 100% better. She apologized. She let things out. She explained why she aimed at me. I forgave her, but until this day I'm still a little upset of how a place where all JoBro fans should be family.. we end up fighting. But I will never admit that I'm trying to "break us up" or "fight", because it simply isn't true. All I did was BELIEVE. Have FAITH. Because of this, I "annoyed" somebody and got bitched about in front of the whole world.. Literally. (Because anybody can join that group and see the posts, doesn't matter if you're from China or the U.S, you can join.) It hurt me so bad. Sure, I have forgiven this person. But I will never forget this day, as much as I try to.

That's it for the day. If you're reading my blogs, thank you so much. It means a lot to me that people are interested in my life. And remember, no matter how alone you feel... you've always got God there. He is here with you. You also have YOURSELF. Your faith. If you think you've lost your faith from a long time ago.. You're wrong. Your faith has and always will be with you. In your heart. I love you all!

Please leave me a comment. :) -Hiba


  1. God is amazing.
    And I think it's fantastic you have such faith in Him.
    He looks after us, and will always protect us :)
    Wow <3
    Great post ^^

  2. i have too agree with Nicole..
    i love how you have such faith in God..
    no matter what he'll always be with you,
    and i think it's really great that you'er showing your beliefs and how much you really trust and love him :)

  3. hey hiba :D
    youare such an amazing person and to share how strong you believe in God is just amazing.
    i love how you arnt afraid of being yourself and showing to the world that your not afraid of anything.
    i love how you have such trust in someone most people are against.
    by remembering God is there, you will never feel alone :D
    xo Steph

  4. I wish I had the same faith in God that you do.
    I'm so angry at myself, for letting it go.
    And I don't have a clue how to get it back :|

  5. iv got to agree with Nicole..
    God is amazing
    + this was a great post :)

  6. hey :)
    love your blog :D
    and God is amazing.
    I feel like I'm not a good enough Christian sometimes, but then I remember that he loves me no matter what, and as long as I believe, he'll be there, waiting to welcome me with open arms.
    great post :D

    gg xx


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