you are... amazing. beautiful, and the only thing that's going to make you even more beautiful, is if you be-you..tiful. be yourself. don't be afraid to take chances, risks and make mistakes because that's going to make you who you are, and therefore you will find somebody who will love you for you. you'll know what truly makes you happy, you'll know how to spend the rest of your life. don't waste your time, because believe it or not, time is short. life is not certain. congratulations, you've survived through yesterday. but nobody said you'd survive through today, or if you'd see tomorrow. if that doesn't make you realize that time is short, then what does?
only you can define your happiness. hearts break, people change, promises are broken, life gets rough, yeah... but life goes on. you can't really do anything but at least try and forget about it, because it's the past. and nobody can change what has already happened. you don't get a second chance, life's not a xBox game you can simply restart, you've only got one chance at life.. so make it worth it, because before you know it, it may be over sooner than you think.
it's reality. face it. i'm not going to sit here and tell you wrong from right, or not to make mistakes, i'm going to be honest with you.. because i care. only you can make the choices in your life. only you can decide who to trust or not. it's normal to make mistakes, and those mistakes, take them as an awareness. learn from them. because all these risks and chances you take, all these mistakes.. they make you who you are today.
just be careful. because you may know what day it is, you may know who you love and who you dislike, you may know what the time is.. but something you don't know is, When is your time?
choose and make your choices wisely.
use your brain, what's it for? use it wisely. don't waste your time caring about something that doesn't really matter in the end. be kind to people. treat people the way you'd like to be treated. give to the poor, to the less fortunate. appreciate every breath you take because every second, a breath is shortened. a heart stops beating. a person stops living.
that person can be you sooner than you'd think.
we know that.
what we don't know is... when?
now? tomorrow? next month? in a year? before you have children?
so many questions are asked, but not many are answered. not many can be answered.
appreciate because your only one chance at life can be taken away so easily..
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
commitment
in the past month, my life has dropped into the darkness area that i never wanted to go back to. i've changed. everybody always tells me that because i'm still so young, i should go out and have fun and not worry about much, because i'm only a teenager. but what if i live my youth mucking around and making inconsiderate decisions and mistakes, and my time is short? what if my life ends when it's too late to start taking things seriously?
ive made a commitment to myself. i plan to improve next term in school, get more organized, and focus a lot more in classes and with homework. im not blaming anybody else but myself, because it is my fault. so i stepped up and make a wise decision - to delete the social networking website that i was literally on 24 hours a day - facebook. so, i deleted it.
thats the first step to improving. now that i don't have much to do on the internet, i won't be on as much as i used to be on, when i had a reason to be on it.
which means, focusing more on my education rather than what's happening on facebook, and who commented on my pictures, or statuses or who wrote on my wall.
im sure missing it, though, but we're gonna have to miss a lot of things in life that we can not have.
this goal i've set is very serious, me, my parents and my school homegroup teacher will be having another interview about 2 weeks into the next term, to see how i'm doing, and if im improving. i will work so very hard to make sure the interview will be full of good news.
ive made a commitment to myself. i plan to improve next term in school, get more organized, and focus a lot more in classes and with homework. im not blaming anybody else but myself, because it is my fault. so i stepped up and make a wise decision - to delete the social networking website that i was literally on 24 hours a day - facebook. so, i deleted it.
thats the first step to improving. now that i don't have much to do on the internet, i won't be on as much as i used to be on, when i had a reason to be on it.
which means, focusing more on my education rather than what's happening on facebook, and who commented on my pictures, or statuses or who wrote on my wall.
im sure missing it, though, but we're gonna have to miss a lot of things in life that we can not have.
this goal i've set is very serious, me, my parents and my school homegroup teacher will be having another interview about 2 weeks into the next term, to see how i'm doing, and if im improving. i will work so very hard to make sure the interview will be full of good news.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
internet death
yes, yes, i know that i havent been on for so so so long. my apologies. a lot has happened, actually, a lot of unexpected things that have finally proved to me that life does not always go my way. which is a bummer i guess.
i have to learn how to juggle. i have no more facebook now because my grades have dropped, and i believe that facebook is a big distraction. i feel so overwhelmed now because if i don't improve, im stopping myself and my family from going overseas at the end of the year, because i have to improve in order to go, otherwise i'd fail. and next year, i'm in year 11. a senior. big step.
ive been praying that i do improve. i just don't know what happened last semester. it's like ive changed but i never realized until someone told me. i feel so lost all of the time, like im desperete to find out my future, to know what im going to end up doing, marrying.. where i end up in the end. i just want to know. i need a sign, a message from God. i need somebody to tell me it's going to be alright in the end.
for every bit of moment in my life, i have a song to go along with it. this time, it was "the voice within" by christina aguilera.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eeaC8Iy_Nf0
i have to learn how to juggle. i have no more facebook now because my grades have dropped, and i believe that facebook is a big distraction. i feel so overwhelmed now because if i don't improve, im stopping myself and my family from going overseas at the end of the year, because i have to improve in order to go, otherwise i'd fail. and next year, i'm in year 11. a senior. big step.
ive been praying that i do improve. i just don't know what happened last semester. it's like ive changed but i never realized until someone told me. i feel so lost all of the time, like im desperete to find out my future, to know what im going to end up doing, marrying.. where i end up in the end. i just want to know. i need a sign, a message from God. i need somebody to tell me it's going to be alright in the end.
for every bit of moment in my life, i have a song to go along with it. this time, it was "the voice within" by christina aguilera.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eeaC8Iy_Nf0
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems No one ever wants or bothers to explain Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems No one ever wants or bothers to explain Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
the line out of this song that stands out the most for me, is probably "No one ever wants or bothers to explain Of the heartache life can bring and what it means" so true. i mean, i guess theres nobody really to blame, because everybody has their own stories, their own struggles. im just using this as something thats taught me something. when i have a daughter of my own, i'll be sure to be there for her, to warn her that life might get rough at times, i'll be sure to comfort her, not make things worse, because i know how that feels and i dont want anybody feeling the way ive felt for the past 2 years.
if you're struggling through a time in your life right now.. just remember that im here. remember that theres always somebody who has got it worse than you've got it. no matter how hard that may seem to believe, it's true.
just be grateful that...
that you're alive.
if that's not something to smile about, then what is?
appreciate that you've got a bed to sleep in, food to keep your stomach full, water to drink, and a roof over your head. clothes to wear. a COMPUTER to read blogs from.
there's one more thing you should remember...
life doesn't get easier.
you just get stronger.
if you're struggling through a time in your life right now.. just remember that im here. remember that theres always somebody who has got it worse than you've got it. no matter how hard that may seem to believe, it's true.
just be grateful that...
that you're alive.
if that's not something to smile about, then what is?
appreciate that you've got a bed to sleep in, food to keep your stomach full, water to drink, and a roof over your head. clothes to wear. a COMPUTER to read blogs from.
there's one more thing you should remember...
life doesn't get easier.
you just get stronger.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
are you really in love?
Earlier today, I was just thinking about this. I had the conversation with a few on Facebook and Twitter - and I thought it's blog-worthy.
Whenever somebody breaks up with a guy who they've been going out with for like a month, and they cry like they were married; I wanna tell them to shut up. Honestly. I've learned by now that you can't just find the one at this age, because you're still figuring out the person you are. Of course, there's going to be misunderstandings and arguments. That's normal. But if you can't hold on any longer, just let go. There will be other guys. We're still young, we're still exploring new stuff. So, whenever you're with a guy, please don't set your hopes too high. If you do, and things go wrong, you'll be even more heartbroken and that's tough.
Nowadays, teenagers just date for fun. Sometimes the word "Love" doesn't even mean a thing. And that's the problem. I know guys who only date girls because they "want" something. I know girls who date guys for the sake of having a boyfriend and that's my point. It's all fate. You can find "the one" at this age, but you never know if there was "another one".
"Omg, he's the one for me!!!": Thoughts like that are the things that break our hearts even more when you break up with a boy. I've learned from seeings others make that mistake that setting your hopes too high in a boy, especially as a teenager, can end really defectively.
I mean, I totally understand that things change when you're with someone, and things change again if they leave. I understand that you're with a guy, and when he leaves you miss him terribly. You want him back.
But if you think about it... Is it really about him, after all? Or is it about having somebody there for YOU? To make you feel special, to be there with a shoulder to lean on. Love is much more than that. Some teenagers are too naive to even take that in and believe it.
When you're with a boy... You don't come back the next day and make yourself believe he's the one. No, that can break your heart more than anything in the world. Wanna know why? Simple... What if he's NOT "the one"?
Has anybody ever wondered about their "the one", anyway? Other than who they are, of course. But nobody has ever figured out that there may be more than just one "the one's?" Or nobody has ever figured out that maybe you will take a wrong turn in life, turning you away from "the one"? It's never like that, no. Everybody is just too focused on finding a happily ever after to even appreciate what they have in front of them.
Sometimes you take one little step that you weren't supposed to in life, and everything becomes erroneous. Your "happily ever after" isn't so happy anymore.
Just... Take my advice. Please. Don't set your hopes too much for any boy. Don't change for any boy. Don't let any boy or for that matter anyBODY define your happiness! Or define the person that you are!
Remember, you can't love anybody else until you love yourself. And that goes for everything. You can't do something before you figure out the person you are. You can't follow a dream that's not yours.
I'll talk to you all very soon! I love you all!!
EDIT1: I know I sound so mature for a fifteen year old, but I like to think of solutions for problems that most teenagers don't look upon. I like to use big words. I love to express my thoughts and opinions into a piece of writing. I am so thankful every single day that God gave me a very special gift. A gift that can change the world, that can inspire. And I believe in myself. I believe that one day, I can change the world with my words.
That is something I wish to pursue one day. So thank you for supporting me and being there. <3
EDIT2: While I love for you to keep this advice for your future, I also advise you not to guarantee that this whole blog is the truth based on your life. Because everybody is different, everybody has their time. Time of birth, time of death, time of marriage, time of... So on. This blog was directed to a few people that I know of that set their hopes too high when they get a boyfriend. I never said you can't find love at this age, but if you're too focused on finding "the one", it makes it harder for you to deal with heartbreaks.
Whenever somebody breaks up with a guy who they've been going out with for like a month, and they cry like they were married; I wanna tell them to shut up. Honestly. I've learned by now that you can't just find the one at this age, because you're still figuring out the person you are. Of course, there's going to be misunderstandings and arguments. That's normal. But if you can't hold on any longer, just let go. There will be other guys. We're still young, we're still exploring new stuff. So, whenever you're with a guy, please don't set your hopes too high. If you do, and things go wrong, you'll be even more heartbroken and that's tough.
Nowadays, teenagers just date for fun. Sometimes the word "Love" doesn't even mean a thing. And that's the problem. I know guys who only date girls because they "want" something. I know girls who date guys for the sake of having a boyfriend and that's my point. It's all fate. You can find "the one" at this age, but you never know if there was "another one".
"Omg, he's the one for me!!!": Thoughts like that are the things that break our hearts even more when you break up with a boy. I've learned from seeings others make that mistake that setting your hopes too high in a boy, especially as a teenager, can end really defectively.
I mean, I totally understand that things change when you're with someone, and things change again if they leave. I understand that you're with a guy, and when he leaves you miss him terribly. You want him back.
But if you think about it... Is it really about him, after all? Or is it about having somebody there for YOU? To make you feel special, to be there with a shoulder to lean on. Love is much more than that. Some teenagers are too naive to even take that in and believe it.
When you're with a boy... You don't come back the next day and make yourself believe he's the one. No, that can break your heart more than anything in the world. Wanna know why? Simple... What if he's NOT "the one"?
Has anybody ever wondered about their "the one", anyway? Other than who they are, of course. But nobody has ever figured out that there may be more than just one "the one's?" Or nobody has ever figured out that maybe you will take a wrong turn in life, turning you away from "the one"? It's never like that, no. Everybody is just too focused on finding a happily ever after to even appreciate what they have in front of them.
Sometimes you take one little step that you weren't supposed to in life, and everything becomes erroneous. Your "happily ever after" isn't so happy anymore.
Just... Take my advice. Please. Don't set your hopes too much for any boy. Don't change for any boy. Don't let any boy or for that matter anyBODY define your happiness! Or define the person that you are!
Remember, you can't love anybody else until you love yourself. And that goes for everything. You can't do something before you figure out the person you are. You can't follow a dream that's not yours.
I'll talk to you all very soon! I love you all!!
EDIT1: I know I sound so mature for a fifteen year old, but I like to think of solutions for problems that most teenagers don't look upon. I like to use big words. I love to express my thoughts and opinions into a piece of writing. I am so thankful every single day that God gave me a very special gift. A gift that can change the world, that can inspire. And I believe in myself. I believe that one day, I can change the world with my words.
That is something I wish to pursue one day. So thank you for supporting me and being there. <3
EDIT2: While I love for you to keep this advice for your future, I also advise you not to guarantee that this whole blog is the truth based on your life. Because everybody is different, everybody has their time. Time of birth, time of death, time of marriage, time of... So on. This blog was directed to a few people that I know of that set their hopes too high when they get a boyfriend. I never said you can't find love at this age, but if you're too focused on finding "the one", it makes it harder for you to deal with heartbreaks.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
i have a dream
Do you remember when I wrote a blog about people with dreams, who are afraid of going after their dreams? I wrote that I didn't want to make that mistake. A mistake of letting somebody else tear away my dreams, and me giving up.
But I am making that mistake right now. It's almost as if I'm losing the person that I am. Like I wasn't supposed to be that person.
It feels as though I have nothing to live for, nothing more to give. I have a dream, I was willing to go after it... But the people in my life just don't understand. My friends do, but what are my friends going to do? Shove me on a plane and take me away? That's not possible.
I feel as though I've waited too late. Or that I was born into the wrong family. I want to have been born into a family that understands my dream, and allows me to go after it. You might be thinking that what kind of a family do I have? Don't think that. I love my parents too death, but they're not used to having a daughter with a dream.
I'm different than my brothers and sisters. I'm unique. I have a dream that I want to persue.
Nobody understands that. It's almost like I'm living a life that I don't want to live. What's the point, anyway?
On other news, it's summer vacation for me. I have to lighten up. I want to make this a summer I'll never forget. I hope you guys stay with me through this Summer Journey, I have a feeling a lot with happen that I will blog about.
Thank you for following my blogs and commenting for those who are. My 22 followers are probably the only thing I have left in me now.
But I love you guys, sooo much.
-Hiba
But I am making that mistake right now. It's almost as if I'm losing the person that I am. Like I wasn't supposed to be that person.
It feels as though I have nothing to live for, nothing more to give. I have a dream, I was willing to go after it... But the people in my life just don't understand. My friends do, but what are my friends going to do? Shove me on a plane and take me away? That's not possible.
I feel as though I've waited too late. Or that I was born into the wrong family. I want to have been born into a family that understands my dream, and allows me to go after it. You might be thinking that what kind of a family do I have? Don't think that. I love my parents too death, but they're not used to having a daughter with a dream.
I'm different than my brothers and sisters. I'm unique. I have a dream that I want to persue.
Nobody understands that. It's almost like I'm living a life that I don't want to live. What's the point, anyway?
On other news, it's summer vacation for me. I have to lighten up. I want to make this a summer I'll never forget. I hope you guys stay with me through this Summer Journey, I have a feeling a lot with happen that I will blog about.
Thank you for following my blogs and commenting for those who are. My 22 followers are probably the only thing I have left in me now.
But I love you guys, sooo much.
-Hiba
Thursday, December 10, 2009
fantasies and dreams
We all have fantasies. Most of these fantasies are probably impossible - But some of them aren't 100% impossible. Fantasy is sometimes better than reality. It washes your mind and makes you smile.
But then the time comes where you must face reality and forget your fantasies. Where you realize/think that your fantasy isn't going to happen. It makes you depressed. I'll use an example: You fantasize about being with your favorite celebrity. You've probably got a 10% chance of that happening - Depends on where and who you are. And when you realize that it might not happen, and a million other girls want it to happen to them... You get sad and miserable.
Then you just don't care anymore. You feel like there's no reason for you to care and keep trying. That's how I'm feeling right now.
In my family, I'm unique. Most of my sisters are just focused on finding a man, getting married and having children. But that's not me. And sometimes, my mum doesn't get it. I don't want to just get married and throw my life away. Sure, I might meet someone I really like when I'm older... But that doesn't mean we have to get married a few years later. I want to chase my dreams.
And that's why chasing my dreams, today, is so, so, so, sooo hard. Because nobody understands me. I come from a generation where nobody focuses on their dreams too much. None of my relatives were into the music, song-writing, hollywood type of thing. Which makes it hard for me.
Most celebrity's these days have at least one relative who are what they are. For example, Miley Cyrus' dad, Jonas' Brothers parents were in shows and into that musical stuff, Selena Gomez and Demi Lovato's parents understand their dreams and let them chase it at a very young age.
That's not like me. It's much harder for me because to me, none of my family members actually understand that I have a dream.
I have a dream and I am actually willing to fulfill it, one day.
If only I could get a glimpse of my future, that'd make things a lot better right now. I'm so confused. Like, what do I do now? Do I just give up?
But then the time comes where you must face reality and forget your fantasies. Where you realize/think that your fantasy isn't going to happen. It makes you depressed. I'll use an example: You fantasize about being with your favorite celebrity. You've probably got a 10% chance of that happening - Depends on where and who you are. And when you realize that it might not happen, and a million other girls want it to happen to them... You get sad and miserable.
Then you just don't care anymore. You feel like there's no reason for you to care and keep trying. That's how I'm feeling right now.
In my family, I'm unique. Most of my sisters are just focused on finding a man, getting married and having children. But that's not me. And sometimes, my mum doesn't get it. I don't want to just get married and throw my life away. Sure, I might meet someone I really like when I'm older... But that doesn't mean we have to get married a few years later. I want to chase my dreams.
And that's why chasing my dreams, today, is so, so, so, sooo hard. Because nobody understands me. I come from a generation where nobody focuses on their dreams too much. None of my relatives were into the music, song-writing, hollywood type of thing. Which makes it hard for me.
Most celebrity's these days have at least one relative who are what they are. For example, Miley Cyrus' dad, Jonas' Brothers parents were in shows and into that musical stuff, Selena Gomez and Demi Lovato's parents understand their dreams and let them chase it at a very young age.
That's not like me. It's much harder for me because to me, none of my family members actually understand that I have a dream.
I have a dream and I am actually willing to fulfill it, one day.
If only I could get a glimpse of my future, that'd make things a lot better right now. I'm so confused. Like, what do I do now? Do I just give up?
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
opinionated part 2+exams
When I was younger... I thought that everybody had the same small little features. Same nose, same ears, same eye-shape, same mouth-shape - none of that really mattered because I didn't think there was anything to worry about.
As I grew older... I realized I was wrong. Everybody has different noses, mouths, ears, eyes. Now looking at that sentence, I'm just like, wow I must have been dumb!! But it wasn't any of the immature stupidity within me... It was the innocence. The innocence of being young and free. I never worried about homework, boys, my looks, my clothes... I mean, yeah, I wanted to look nice - but that wasn't at the top of my to-do list.
But now, all of that really matters - especially in a teenage life. Everyday I look at people and notice the different features they have to me. It always reminds me of that time where none of that mattered and everything was so innocently perfect.
I took all of that for granted. I wish somebody was there to remind me to appreciate it all cause everything could change very soon. Who knows, maybe someone did try to remind me. I probably never listened.
I hate it when life seems like it can't get any better... and BANG! Something little happens and your life falls back down again. I HATE IT. I've got exams now, and I'm stressing so much. I don't know what to do. What if I fail?
I'm going to go and try and study. Thanks for your support. <3
As I grew older... I realized I was wrong. Everybody has different noses, mouths, ears, eyes. Now looking at that sentence, I'm just like, wow I must have been dumb!! But it wasn't any of the immature stupidity within me... It was the innocence. The innocence of being young and free. I never worried about homework, boys, my looks, my clothes... I mean, yeah, I wanted to look nice - but that wasn't at the top of my to-do list.
But now, all of that really matters - especially in a teenage life. Everyday I look at people and notice the different features they have to me. It always reminds me of that time where none of that mattered and everything was so innocently perfect.
I took all of that for granted. I wish somebody was there to remind me to appreciate it all cause everything could change very soon. Who knows, maybe someone did try to remind me. I probably never listened.
I hate it when life seems like it can't get any better... and BANG! Something little happens and your life falls back down again. I HATE IT. I've got exams now, and I'm stressing so much. I don't know what to do. What if I fail?
I'm going to go and try and study. Thanks for your support. <3
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