i'm sorrrrry..

wow - i have not written a blog in, what feels like, so long! for this, i am truly sorry! i've been really busy and my writers block is no more.. for my song-writing. but now, i can't think of anything to write a BLOG about! stupid thing! ha. it's the last week of the term, and with all the reports and etc, i'm really busy. if you see me on twitter, i'm also doing my homework. it's so hard.

i promise to try and write a new blog as soon as i can. probably even tomorrow!

random news.. i'm learning spanish! estoy aprendiendo poco a poco español. Which means, "I'm slowly learning Spanish". Of course, it will take a while and I only should know the basic words that are used in every-day sentences. I've been having conversations with people that are actually spanish, in spanish - which is pretty cool..

anyway! so, i'm soo sorry guys. i love ya'll so much. for all your help and support. if i don't post a blog on nick's birthday.. you can seriously kill me. i'll kill myself. i must mark this date forever with a blog! hahaha.

i love you, once again. you all are amazing people.. truly. i think i know what to write my blog about tomorrow.. right now, i gotta go to bed. school tomorrow. :/

stay tuned my loves! -hibz

more about me.

There's a lot you guys don't know about me just yet (and to think that was even possible!) so I will answer your questions on this blog!

Q; Who would you consider your biggest inspiration besides Jonas Brothers? (Nick Jonas) - Ashley

A; Well, the answer to that has to be Taylor Swift. I can relate to almost every one of her songs and it means a lot to be able to listen to this girl.. who used to be a normal teenager like me.. who went through bad times.. rough times.. bullying times.. (as she's said).. and now she's on top of the world. She gives me faith that I can end up like her one day (with my writing).

Q; Also, who are your favorite bands beside Jonas Brothers? -Ashley

A; Mmm.. I'm not sure. I'm not really into bands other than Jonas. Paramore is pretty cool.. Boys Like Girls.. I mean, I only like a few songs from each band so I guess that's not really considered "favorite". I'm more into the solo artists like Demi Lovato, etc. BUT! However. I am now officially in love with Coldplay! Their songs are UHMAZIN.

Q; What's the first and last thing you think about each morning and night? - Chesneyh

A; Each day I think of something differently. But most of the time, each morning I first think about the day ahead... how my day is going to be... what's going to happen.. and at night, I think about everything I did that day. But other than those.. the first and last thing I think about in the morning+night.. is God. :)

Q; Do you ever have one of those days where you feel like you don't belong and you're not wanted, and you just wanna run away? - Richelle

A; Yes. Yes. YES. These days have come and they have gone and they come again and then they go and so on. It happens to everyone. I feel all alone, even though I know I'm not. I look up at the sky, watch the sun.. watch the moon.. look at the stars and then I know for sure that I am not alone.. somewhere... somewhere in the world, somebody is looking at the same sun, moon and stars that I am looking at.. and thinking the same thing I am thinking. Life will always have it's rough times. Sometimes, believe it or not, I've thought that I don't belong in my family. Like everybody hates me. I'm the odd one out. Like I'm not loved.. Like I was born into a family I don't belong in. It hurts because sometimes I don't like to be proven wrong. Like in Black Keys.. Nick says/writes "she hates the sun cause it proves she's not alone and the world doesn't revolve around her soul". That line means a lot to me. Sometimes I like to think something and even though I know I'm NOT alone - but I feel like I am - I don't WANT to believe it.

Q; Why does Nick Jonas inspire you? How does he inspire you? - Frequently Asked.

A; When I tell people that hate the boys that Nick Jonas inspires me.. you know what they say? "You only love him cause you think he's hot!!". Not true. At all. I'm not going to say I don't think he's good looking or attractive.. but that's not the reason why I love him. There are fans that think like that.. but I am not one of them. I love Nick Jonas because he inspires me with my writing - and writing is the most important part of my life. It's a really big part of my life and it means a lot to me. Nick Jonas writes his own songs. Mostly about things anybody can relate to. Not always about girls or relationships or broken hearts. About life.. The good and the bad.. And that's what I love about him. He inspires me to write about my life. And that has helped me a lot because writing something down is letting something out.. and that changes a lot in my life. When I listen to the song he has written.. like Black Keys.. A Little Bit Longer.. etc, I smile. I smile at the words. I smile at his voice. They're both perfect for me. Then I instantly feel the urge to get up and start writing a song.. and the song ends up being my new favorite song that I have written. It means a lot to me.

Q; How passionate are you about writing? - Unknown.

A; Very passionate. I'm also passionate about music. Writing and music mix together.. they link together. I love to write because I love music. When I had a writers block a few weeks back.. I was going crazy. I couldn't think of ANYTHING to write and it killed me because I wasn't used to it. I really do love writing - it's become a big part of my life.

Q; Do you like the Beatles? -Sara

Yes! I LOVE JOHN LENNON - I must say. He was and still is an amazing human being. "Imagine" will forever be my favorite songs of history. He really is... he's just incredible. My dad was a big fan back in the days. John Lennon - you're awesome and forever will be. The Beatles are awesome, too. :)

That's all the questions I have time for now! I must go to bed. It's almost 12AM.. and I have school. Argh. I hope you guys enjoyed reading more about me! Thank you so much for your comments. They mean the WORLD to me - you have noo idea. So THANK YOU.

Here are a few video links.. that changed my life. Doves Campaign for Real Beauty:

Real Beauty or Fake?

Amy... is beautiful. And so are you.

I love the "Amy" one. And yes.. I did send it to you guys because I think each and every one of you are beautiful. (Watch the ad and you'll understand what I'm on about).

Honestly. You girls/guys are amazing. You're beautiful. You're perfect in every little way.

Talk soon.. xox -Hibz

it takes courage..

on this blog, i am not going to use capital letter where needed. because that is not what this blog focuses on. not using the right punctuation doesn't make this blog perfect.. and that is what this blog is about. i hope when you read this, you feel at least a little better. motivated. and then you will know that you are never alone...

so tell me... you. you right there. you the one that's reading my words. the one that's reading my story...the person who is as beautiful as a perfect rainbow...how was your day? did it suck? did you wanna run away? did you feel like nobody cared?

or maybe you felt happy... maybe you didn't feel sad. maybe today was a good day for you.

or maybe you're stuck in between...you had a good day...to begin with...then something happened and your good day become bad...

how ever your day was...how ever the sun shone..how ever the rain came falling down..or however the wind blew against your face...you came home...and you started to read this blog.

maybe cause you felt low and you needed some cheering up..maybe because you wanted to prove to yourself that you're not alone..maybe i inspired you..or maybe you just felt bad because i had asked you to read.. (thank you so much)

you...right there...staring back at your screen, reading along the words that i have written...did you know that you're beautiful in every possible way? did you know that you're an amazing person? did you know that god knows that?

i bet you didn't..which is why i started this blog site..because i have read some blogs by others, like christa black, who just let everything out..they were sharing their story..and i related. that proves that sharing your own personal story can make others know that they're never alone...because they relate.

did you know that it takes courage to get up every morning when you feel.. yuck? not appreciated? you do this for your lord. you do this for yourself. or you just don't wanna be late to school..but either way..it takes courage.

to go outside when you don't feel beautiful..to go to school when you don't feel beautiful..to tell yourself you're beautiful when you don't feel it..

let me tell you something..you're strong..you're a strong person. you can handle a lot of things..you are the one that has the power to brighten up your own day..

nobody else. you.

god is with you all the time..he's watching you from up above..he's hoping that you will keep holding on..and when you do, you feel blessed. you feel as if god has blessed you because you just made it through a tough day..

and that's what makes you a beautiful person..you.

you make yourself beautiful..you make yourself feel beautiful..nobody else. when somebody compliments you..you choose to take it as a blessing..you feel better when someone compliments you because you take that compliment in..

and you believe..

don't ever doubt anything in your life, sweeties...because doubting just stops the train of life you're on..it makes things harder..it makes it harder for you to believe in yourself..

don't ever let that happen..just know that i am thinking of you..just know that god is with you all the time...you are never alone.

i love you so much..you're all amazing and perfect..

-hibz

p.s this blog was inspired by christa black. this whole blog website was, too..but this blog was more inspired by her..she told me i was beautiful..she told me i was perfect..and i'm passing the love on. because i love you that much. xo

i believe

Believing is one of the greatest gifts somebody can have.

Sometimes, it comes naturally.

But other times, it takes something to make you believe a certain thing.

I respect everybody and their beliefs. No matter what you believe, I respect you. But I believe in certain things, and because this is my blog, I will tell you guys.

Of course, I believe in God. Heaven. Hell. Judgment day. I know there is a God, I know there is a Heaven. When you feel like something or somebody is watching you... it's something you should cherish. Most of the time, it's not a human being watching you.

It's God.

I was fasting one day at school, while all my other friends weren't. I would watch them eating and be like "mmm... food". It crossed my mind that I should break my fast... but I couldn't. I didn't want to. I kept hearing a voice inside my head saying, "no, don't do it. You're strong. Stay strong and you'll be even more stronger."

I didn't break my fast. I kept on holding on. So when I went to break my fast when I actually could (sunset).. I felt much for accomplished.

I believe that God was there. Sending his angels to tell me that I shouldn't let anybody force me into breaking my fast before it was time.

When I talk about God and Heaven etc. to people... I smile. I smile because I believe. I believe because I... believe. I smile because believing is something you should smile about.

There was also a time where I down. Low. I couldn't get out of bed. I couldn't do anything. I had school. Didn't wanna be late... but I couldn't seem to pick myself up. I wasn't sick or anything.. I was just... I don't know.

That was when it was like God had reached down, and picked me up himself. Told me that I was strong enough to get up.

And believe it or not.. After I had gotten up and sat on the edge of my bed... The sun suddenly appeared out of nowhere. You know how sometimes the sunshine shines at a particular spot? Sometimes the reason being the curtain? That happened. The sunshine was right ON me.

Honestly.

I'm not lying or anything. I wouldn't lie about this kinda stuff.

All these signs... They make my belief stronger. And it means the world to me that I have a chance to believe in something that changes my life..

No matter what you believe in, you're beautiful.

You still believe in something. Everything you believe makes you a more beautiful person each day you continue to believe.

I swear I love ya'll. -Hiba

rejection

Don't ever let the fear of rejection keep you from loving. And I'm proud of YOU for not letting that happen... but something... something different happened. Something you didn't expect.

He rejected you.

I can tell you that I know exactly how you feel. It's happened to me before. And I can also tell you that it's not the best feeling in the world.

You feel useless....worthless...like you don't matter...like you're not loved...like nobody likes you.

Then questions haunt you like, "why didn't he like me? I'm ugly, aren't I? I'm not beautiful. I'm not pretty." You wonder why he doesn't like you. "Did somebody tell him something about me? I can't believe the cutest guy just rejected me."

It's hard to cope with.

Hannah, you are beautiful. Honestly, you are. I am proud of you for not backing away and telling this boy your true feelings. You were rejected out of one boys life.... but you'll never be rejected out of mine. And a lot of other people.

One day, you're going to meet the boy of your dreams that loves you for you. That will love you back. Trust me, you will.

That's the reason why God created everything two. Two ears. Two hands. Two eyes. Then, he created only one heart for each person. Because there's another heart out there just for you.

I love you. :)

-Hiba

the black keys

I am in love with a song called Black Keys. It means a lot to me, more than anybody would ever know. It's not about boys. It's not about girls. It's not even about a relationship. It's giving a meaning of life. I'm not going to tell you who sings it/wrote it because that's not what matters. (I bet you already know, though).

"She hates the sun, cause it proves she's not alone and the world doesn't revolve around her soul:" This line was confusing at first. All it took was for me to read in between the lines for the understanding of it. There's always going to be a part in your life where you feel like you're everything. Where you are alone. Where you think of something and you don't want to be proven wrong. I think this line symbolizes that part of life.

"The walls are closing in. Don't let them get inside of your head:" I am sure that you have experienced this before. When you just wanna run away and ignore everything they say. When you feel like a tiny person sometimes. Like nobody cares. Like the walls of your bedroom are closing in.

"The Black Keys never looked so beautiful. And a perfect rainbow never seemed so dull. And the lights out never had this brighter glow and the Black Keys were showing me a world I never knew:" There's going to be times where things you thought were dull and gray and boring before.. will become your everything. While this happens, the things that are beautiful like rainbows and sunshine will appear to be dull and boring. Sometimes.. you've gotta take chances. Because sometimes, those chances will show you a whole different world.

When I first heard this song, I thought Black Keys was like... car keys or something (he says something about driving in a car). That made sense. Car keys are boring. Don't mean that much. He's telling us that they had never looked so beautiful while a rainbow didn't. But then I found out that Black Keys were actually the keys that are black (duh) on a piano. I found out that when he said when he first wrote this song, he only used the black keys on his piano.

This boy keeps getting amazing.

"Sometimes a fight is better black and white:" True. Sometimes color isn't everything. In fact, I love taking black and white photographs of pretty much anything.. Because when you look at the picture, you don't look at the color of the person's eyes....or the color of the clothes their wearing....or the color of their hair. You just look at this picture. And that's the beauty of life.

This song has inspired me. Ever since I first heard it... it touched my heart. This boy proves to me that writing doesn't only express love and broken hearts (c'mon, you gotta admit... most songs out there are about that sorta stuff). It can express anything. I love a song even more when I understand the meaning of the words.

That's why when I write songs.... I don't always write about boys. Love. Broken hearts. I write about... life. I write about things that I go through, and most of the things I do go through isn't always boys boys boys.

This person inspires me so much. I never thought I could be this inspired. (Because of him, you got this blog and most blogs on here. Because of him, I write songs that have meanings.) I've always wondered and dreamed of writing a song with this boy. Okay, okay... I'll admit. Every other girl has dreamed that too.

But... not every other girl is passionate about writing like I am. Some are just like me. So they know how I'm feeling. This boy writes words that have the ability to touch my heart....inspire me.

If we ever do write a song together... I'll be sure not to write about being broken hearted. About love between two people attracted to each other. I just.... I want to write a song about life. Something that every other person will eventually relate to. Something that will touch every person like this song has touched me.

Who knows, maybe we'll write a song called White Keys. ;)

So, that's all for today. Remember that you are beautiful. You define the word beautiful. Words can't and will never bring you down because I know that you're strong. Take chances because sometimes they help you turn into the right direction.

You can't win until you try.
You can't touch the sky until you fly.
You can't finish until you start.
You can't love until you have a heart.

I came up with that a few months back. It means... taking a chance. Of course, you'll take chances that you shouldn't have taken. But taking them has taught you a whole new thing. Something new. Don't let the fear of that keep you from taking the chances.

I love you.

-Hiba xoxo

he's looking down

God. He's looking down. At all of us. He is the only one who can feel how you feel when you're having a tough time. He is the only one who can see your true colors, even if you don't show them. God is looking down at you. He's looking down and thinking, "wow this person is strong." He is proud. He created a person who can handle a lot of things. Tears, cuts, bruises, fights.. He does not want to see you sad. Ever.

He created you to go after what you want. He wants you to be happy.

However, he also created people who took the wrong path. Walked down the road of life and instead of turning a certain way, with the rest of us, turned the other way. This person made the wrong choice of making the right choice.

This person's action has put them into a bad position. Abusing because they don't like the fact that they've ruined their only chance at life. Yelling because they don't like who they've become. Yelling words at other people they want to yell at themselves.

Don't ever blame yourself or God for any bad moments in your life. Don't blame anyone. Just keep your head up, fight it through. So when that time comes where you're smiling, joyfully... You'll be able to smile even more because you fought through a time all by yourself. And that's what makes us all strong people every day.

Appreciating every moment of your life is what makes you a happy person in the end. Sit on your bed, in the sunlight and think. Don't let anybody bother you. Block out the screaming and yelling, if there's any in your house amongst your brothers/sisters/parents etc. If somebody is yelling at you, just say "Okay", no matter how much you're dying to comment back.

That way you won't be too upset at the end. When you smile, you'll smile for a reason.

And guess what? I will smile along with you. And so will the world.

Trust me on this. Trust yourself. Trust GOD. And nobody else should be able to ruin your day. If they do, you'll have at least SOMEBODY to turn to.

I love you.

-Hiba